This is exactly who i am now

Pilgrim's Theme
(jmm)


Tired of weaving dreams too loose for me to wear
Tired of watching clouds repeat their dance on air
Tired of getting tired of doing what's required
Is life a mere routine in the greater scheme of things

Through with taking roads someone else designed
Through with chasing stars that soon forget to shine
Through with going through one more day - what's new
Does my life still mean a thing in the greater scheme of things


I think I'll follow the voice that calls within
Dance to the silent song it sings
I hope to find my place
So my life can fall in place
I know in time I'll find my place
In the greater scheme of things

Each must go his way, but how can I decide
Which path I should take, who will be my guide
I need some kind of star to lead me somewhere far
To find a higher dream in the greater scheme of things

The road before me bends, I don't know what I'll find
Will I meet a friend or ghosts I left behind
Should I even be surprised that You're with me in disguise
For it's Your hand I have seen in the greater scheme of things (REFRAIN 1)


For Yours is the voice in my deepest dreams
You are the heart, the very heart
Of the greater scheme of things (REFRAIN 1)


Why don't we follow the voice that calls within
Dance to the silent song it sings
One day we'll find our place
For all things fall in place
For all things have a place
In the greater scheme of things

i jumped off the cliff

so bravely.

I didn’t fear the heights

Or even what will catch me.

And I jumped.

And I fell.

And I fell.

I splashed in to the ocean.

And I continuously fall.

So deep.

It feels like drowning.

But I enjoy the water.

The coolness.

The unsteady current.

The gentle wave.

And I’m falling deeply.

I’m swimming in an ocean of vulnerability.

It drowns me

And it scares me.

But I don’t want to get out on the surface.

anyone from Japan?

Hi! i'm planning to go to Japan. when is the best time to go there?
i want to see the cherry blossoms. research says, that it happens mid of april.
any suggestions? thanks!

Fun,Fit and Realization

Call me over-acting, but for the entire day, nothing was running in my head but the battle between belly dance and boxing.
i've been struggling the past weeks to try something new.
to try something that will spark my interest and get me fit.

So I've chosen, to belly dance this evening.
boy, did i sway my hips, throw my head in circles, stretch my left and right leg,
swing my head, controlled my butt muscles, stand in good posture, pointed my toes, tuck my chest, collapse my stomach, and shake my butt!
it isn't easy i tell ya!
after attending 2 sessions, i bow in awe to shakira!
belly dancing requires you to separate your muscles and its movements.
it really is a good way to tone your legs, hips,butt, and yes-your belly.
After that, i joined the flamenco class.
it also requires proper coordination and timing.
a dance that needs accurate counting for you to execute the steps properly.
it is also graceful, and very formal.

these dances are really beautiful and meant to be appreciated, but sadly, they are not for me.
you know what i realized,how much i love tennis and how much i miss playing it.
while dancing the flamenco, i can't help but look at the watch to see how many minutes more before the session ends. whereas, with tennis, i wish, i can stretch the day and hold the sun still to play a little longer.
my legs were hurting while dancing, and i was berating myself why i ever took the class.
whereas when playing tennis, i don't mind if my arms hurt like they were dislocated, or when i keep on puffing and breathing deeply for air, even if it feels like my ribs are exploding.
it was really something new that i tried, and something old that affirmed and fueled my love and i guess my passion for playing sports, especially tennis.
i am no pro.
but all i know, is i want to keep on playing it while my knees and my body are still strong and are still in place. it's an area of my life which really challenges me to keep on improving.

tonight, i will sleep with two lessons in my head
1. you have to risk to realize
and
2. (the instructor told us) when you struggle, it means you have a passion.

and with that, i was calmed.

Fun and Fit

Now that I have plenty of time to make myself fit,
i can't choose which between the two will i try tonight...heehee.:)

i tried belly dancing last saturday, and i had fun. it was my first time to belly dance.
plus, if go there , i can meet new people in the studio.

whereas, with boxing, i can do it everyday, which means, it's at a faster rate of burning fat and getting fit. but, it will be the same straight,jab,hook and upper cut punches, and no new people to meet.

it's his birthday-con't

won't be with him tonight. i planned something pa naman.
o well, anyway.

The drunken student meets the drunken master

I have a segment for our talk show- Light Talk- and it's about alcoholism.
We have to interview a recovered alcoholic to share his story and his struggles to combat his disease.
I volunteered to produce and write this segment, because, i-being an ex-alcoholic-can relate to it.
So, for all those who are recovering, and maybe ex members of alcoholics anonymous, this story is for you.

Pastor Sanchez.

Yes, he is a pastor. Yes, he preaches the word of God. Yes, encourages everyone to read the Bible.
Yes, who would have thought he is an alcoholic.
well, today, he is an ex-alcoholic.

he gave in to peer pressure at age 18 and started drinking alcohol.
busy making a living, his parents were not able to monitor his delinquent behavior.
Pastor gambled, played billiards when he was supposed to be in school, dared his friend to stab him when he was drunk, and almost raped their neighbor's help.

For a time, he was separated from his peers when he went to Manila.
He worked as a gasoline boy to support his schooling.
When he finished his Nautical course, he worked aboard a ship, and finally, made his way to be full-pledged seaman.

Being on the cruise for nine straight months, he was away from home, single, Pastor had his time of his life.
He drank beers, and tasted all the booze any country could ever offer.
He had sexual relationships with women from all the places their ship docked.
He smuggled golds and conduit it from one country to another.
He was having a hell of a good time. so he have thought.

Until he found out that he has acquired a sexually transmitted disease and his savings account is nearing empty. He stopped sending money to his parents, which, first of all, was his reason why he went aboard to work.

One vacation, he went home and his mom told him to just pay a visit to the Church.
He did what he was told, and he heard the preach from the Bible, saying "whoever wants to change his ways, come to Me (Lord)." Right there and then, it hit his heart hard enough to change him.



It was a drastic change he said. radical so to speak.
he went aboard the ship again and he threw all his liquors in the sea.
he locked his room during the nights so no prostitute can enter.

He went back to Manila again, and heard God's whisper.
He heard God calling him and asking him to preach His word.
He heed the call and told his father that he will go to Bible School.
His father went berserk and send him away.
But, pastor, obeyed God. and put his faith in Him, because, God asked him "you said I'm powerful, i can do everything, where's your faith, why can't you leave your parents and siblings to me."

And he followed.
Now, for so many years, he's been teaching the good news.
all his siblings finished their studies and are living a well-off life.

Amazing faith, don't you think?